T e a r s
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
-7:19 PM
ok long time never blog liao...
this stupid feeling is coming back.. i dunno why but it is coming back... the feeling of being alone.. the feeling of being rejected... why have u got to find me whenever i try to forget bout you? ok i dun even think you will read this but than i really hope to just forget you.... and go on wif life.. there is not a single chance of you liking me after all you have someone else so pls dun give me false hopes ya? ok nvm u wont read this...
ok got my green and blue contacts today was like so happi XD thx izu!! yes and now i need get red and black. i dunno wad is wrong wif my suddenly liking for contacts... anyway i got it this morning and was like trying to get it into my eyes... but i wont go in... it was hell scary.. coz i drop it a few times and i dun have the solution so in the end decide to go home and try XD will post the pic soon i guess... and yes thx jem for the meal today!!! omg really nice!! but next time put lesser old hor!! haha
me bro is going to jap... yes he is going on like dec *with his scool*? and i hate my family.. coz my parents wont let me go wif him... and my bro does not know anything i wan... i mean if i go with him i can like go out shop myself and all in the morning and take him out again at nite... i can like go get lolita stuff jap street wear stalk psc *yes ppl like tora saga and miyabi* and i can like buy chocolate eye brow concealer.. but than NO they wont let me go.. and to make things worst my bro dunno wad i wan... sadded... he should start liking alice nine and cosplay it would make things better XD
wooot the xmas present i have more or less noe wad to get for ppl liao... and yes i hope it wont be too expensive... XD i am like broke + broke.. after i get my pay 1/2 of it will be gone coz i will be paying this and that... alot of things wor.. i keep telling myself to safe but than i cant coz of my stupid empty stormach... sadded... and yes alot of things are coming in.. and with eoy coming so close now... i feel worried...
btw ya i have change my blog skin... FYI this is not done by me just find it very nice XD sometimes change is good..... i will try to blog more =x
-3:21 PM
just change my skin...from blog skin .com de... no time to make.. later than i will update...
Friday, October 27, 2006
-10:30 PM
got this from willow
1. Your nickames are...A: Leo, leo1808, leo88, panda , hamster... and more..
2. Your favourite cartoon is...
A: flame of recca
3. You are...
A: love!!!
4. Your best friend is...
A: who else can i trust than myself?
5. The person in your mind now is...
A: izu coz she is having my contacts now...
6. You are happy because...
A: Chocolate is loveeee
7. You want to...
A: trash cosfucks
8. The person you heart most...
A: that depends u noe...
9. Your hair colour is...
A: black
10. 5 friends you have in mind...
- nariko
-sh90
-izu
-kyo
-willow
THEY'RE TAGGED!!!!!!!!!!!! XDDD
A: gooooood!!
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
-2:41 PM
very meaningful lyrics from an cafe Sumairu Ichiban Ii Onna
The glittering Venus is beautiful
The glittering Venus is golden
Illuminating my heart, you are the woman with the best smile
You were being jealous of that pretty child, and thinking,
If is was possible to be born looking like that child
then won't life be different?
What a mistaken idea
The same person cannnot exist as two different persons and,
I am attracted to only one smile in this world
The shining Venus is full of innocence
The shining Venus is full of pride
This world is lit only by your light
The glittering Venus is beautiful
The glittering Venus is golden
Illuminating my heart, you are the woman with the best smile
Being in flashy makeup is like being a nail
Being a woman who is able to just let go of her identity,
is making a wrong impression
Making up lies is bad too isn't it?
I can't help but love you the way you are now, the way you've always been
Even loving someone does not require a reason
The pulsing Venus is naïve
The flickering romance of Venus
I have fallen for you, who have loved me
With glittering eyes that flicker,
unable to spot my feelings,
and igniting my chest, you are the woman with the best smile
Despite being afraid to smile,
only towards you who have that courage,
I want to say, "You really did your best!"
The shining Venus is full of innocence
The shining Venus is full of pride
This world is lit only by your light
The glittering Venus is beautiful
The glittering Venus is golden
Illuminating my heart, you are the woman with the best smile
You are my sunsource : http://batsu.org/viewtopic.php?p=590839&highlight=&sid=c44e74700e16128f78f077ae1a5ce597
Labels: Songs
Sunday, October 22, 2006
-10:42 PM
thx alot ya thx alot for making me piss.
well why wont i be piss? you all do all you like and tell me last min. i tot we have like agree on wad to cos already? ya maybe is i TOT lah so yes thx alot for the information that YOU GUYS ARE DOING A LAST MIN CHANGE IN PLANS and thx ya i have nothing to do now. now wad choice do i have? maybe just quit doing it will be better off for me ba hor.
this world do not revolves around me but neither does it revolves around you so plz spare a tot of others next time.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
-1:48 AM
"Labels are the little boxes that SOCIETY forces us into" quoted from somewhere which i forgot XD
anyway just wanna say forget bout it... i am done with this... i dun wan carry on liao.. it is just so tiring.. i must well go burn it all away... anyway... i feel nothing liao.. i will just carry on with life and hope for the better i guess... i have been questioning myself alot and i have wasted alot of time thinking bout this.. and i dun wanna waste anymore time... i just wanna carry on doing wad i like and doing wad i wan and this is wad i wan ... this is totally random but ya.. i sort of made up my mind on certain things... dun ask further ba...
anyway reki thx for the nice words but i would like ppl to flame me or i dunno where i can really improve on.. coz it is way better than sugar coated words rite? XD anyway thx!! ^^
i will blog bout wad i did today and all another time ba.. *this is a promise!!* haha today is just so random.. just set my mind on somethings...
reminder to self
-start woking on props
-start working on wuwu head
-start searching for things for cosplay
and lastly start geting done and geting things right !!
nitez all!!
Friday, October 20, 2006
-9:53 AM
well i have been thinking... wad do i really wan i life? going out wif friends and all... blogging surf the net wait for manga release cosplay j rock... is there anything more? i really cant thinkg of anything else i have and will be doing.... saying that i have no time is just an excuse u see... it is like... i can be here bloging and all but i got no time? anyway juz need to find a purpose...
wad is my purpose in life?
Thursday, October 19, 2006
-12:32 AM
this is wad i posted in sgcafe. flame me if u wish but issit this sg cosplay standard?
well for one thing see the way people take critisim in sg. how can we improve when some of us are taking cosplay as a "play play hobby?" such ppl only end up with more cosfuck being produce coz
"play play" = anyhow do also can, they dun get the point for cosplay they are juz cosplaying for cosplaying = attention seekers i presume.
GET IS STRAIGHT COSFUCKS WE ARE COSPLAYING NO FOR ATTENTION WE ARE COSPLAYING COS WE LIKE THE CHAR. dun insult the chars with your cosfuck cosplaying and ur cosfuck attitude. it shows how much u care bout and how much u know bout cosplaying. and when ppl point out this things that the cosplayer could have done, the cosplayer gets angry.
tt all i got to say ba... cosplay sucks when ppl relate ur good cosplay to cosfuck coz in the end is it worth your effort just to be related to a bunch of cosfuck?
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
-8:26 AM
got this from sh90 blog
Single or Taken: single
Happy about that: yes why should i not be happi?
Eye color: black? or issit brown?
Shoe size: 10
Height: 172
What are you wearing right now?: 3/4, shirt and a jacket
Righty or Lefty: righty
Can you make a dollar in change right now?: yup
FAVORITES
Kind of pants: jeans
Animal: dog, sheatland sheepdog
Alcoholic Drink: sake?
Non-alcoholic: good question....
Month: aug. juz say that i get more things than normal haha
Favorite cartoon: works by CLAMP esp xxxholic and ccs.
HAVE YOU EVER...
Given anyone a bath: no
Bungee Jumped? nope
Made yourself throw-up?: YES!!
Skinny dipped?: er?
Loved someone so that it made you cry?: yes fullstop
Broken a bone: nope but almost.
Played truth or dare: yup
Been in a physical fight: do u consider judo? if not no
Been on a plane: yes
Came close to dying: no....
Been in a hot tub: yes
Fallen asleep in school: yup
Ran away: yes
Broken someone's heart: yes fullstop
Cried when someone died: errmm no? why should i cry?
Fell off your chair: yes
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: ya... end up never got the call coz the person was like in lah lah land?
Saved AIM conversations: AIM nope. MSN yes.
Used someone: ermm depends on how u see it
Been cheated on: yes fullstop
WHAT IS...
Beside you: empty chair?
Last thing you ate: sushi
EVER HAD...
Chicken pox: yes
Sore Throat:yes
Stitches: yes
Broken nose: no broke someone nose yes
DO YOU...
Believe in love at first sight: yup
Long distant relationships: depends...
Like school: use to...
Question yourself: ALOT
Who was the last person that texted you?: izu the text was " not going to scool today"
Who makes you smile the most?: someone special.... and tora and saga haha *fan boy*!!
Who knows you the best: myself. tok to myself alot... cpf and pecky also ba...
Do you like filling these out: what do u think?
Do you get along with your family: NO read my past entries.
FINAL QUESTIONS:
What did you do yesterday: scool eat slp
What car/truck do you wish to have: turtle car!!!
Have a lava lamp?: nope dun like them
How many remote controls are in your house?: say 5 to 8?
Are you double jointed?: er?
When did you last shower?: this morning
Scary or Funny Movies?: funny
Chocolate or Vanilla: both.
Rootbeer or Dr.Pepper: neither
Summer or winter: winter
Silver or Gold: silver
Diamond or pearl: diamonds are forever
Sprite or 7up: any diff?
Coffee or tea: both
Phone or in person: in person.
TODAY DID YOU...
Talk to someone you liked: not yet
Buy something: nope.
Get sick: i will not be in scool if i am.
Talked to an ex: nope
Miss someone: yes....
LAST PERSON WHO....
Slept in your bed: myself? it is my bed after all
Saw/heard you cry: ermm errmm....
Made you cry: ermmm....
Went to the movies with:forgot liao...
Kissed you: ermm...
you said "I Love You" to: lah lah
EVER......
Been in a fight with your pet: yes ah fat bite!!
Been to Mexico: no..
Been to Europe: wish i had
RANDOM.....
Do you have a crush on someone right now: yes but not saying lah lah
What book are you reading now: bleach consider? rereading it
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: nope my nose cannot take it
What's under your bed: which bed?
Favorite sports: JUDO just do it.
What are you most scared of right now?: cosfarks!!! and ermm i think paying for so mani stuff...
Who do you really hate?: myself
Do you have a pet?: before yes now no
Have you ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with?: yes? tora consider? haha
Are you lonely right now?: yes i guess...
Song that's stuck in your head right now?: choPD my style and kagara KOI
Have you ever played strip poker: no wad is that?
Have you ever been on radio/TV: no
Have you ever been in a mosh-pit: wtf?
Ever liked someone, but thought they never noticed?: not sure if they notice or not..
Favorite Locations: in the coner of a room
RANDOM (AGAIN)....
Whats the first things you notice about the opposite sex?: the eyes
Your Favorite Food?: why not start with things that i dont like?
Ever get so drunk you don't remember?: how would i remember something that i do not remember?
Are you too shy to ask someone out?: nope
Hugs or Kisses?: hugs
Favorite Flower?: nope
Have you ever fired a gun?: nope
How many pillows do you sleep with?: 2 but i wan more
Are you missing someone right now: yes
Have any pets that died that you miss?: 22? all my hamsters.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
-10:06 AM
listening to >> Yume izuru chi (live ver) - kagrra
there seem to be more and more retards this few days.
i better have better control over my cash.. or i will be dead. i dun wanna go ask my mum for money coz it is like errmm juz put it that there is nothing better to tok ba...
ok go work liao cya!!
Friday, October 13, 2006
-11:15 PM
have i mention before that i hate being made use of? ok now i mention hope u get the message.
today is one of the most sucky day. maybe cuz it is friday the 13 black friday... why cant they have a colourful monday or a pink wedenesday? ok being lame haha but yes today was abit sucky went over late to kagari shop. got scolded from kagari coz she tot i made a mass at her shop the other time and end up have to clear someone else mass... wtf rite? ok than after that rush back to scool for a 30 min test... pass the yukata to adrain and headed off to meet izu to remit her money and gone back to bishan which i was suppose to cut my hair but by the time i got back to bishan the cut hair place close liao... happi rite? it is like today every thing got screwed up and i am totally not happi wif it... anyway on a happier note i have remake my blog!!! weeeppeeee wakakka errmm not something fancy but i think it is still alrite. simple and errmm juz simple ba haha
sometimes i juz prefer social isolation. give me a break ok?
-11:17 AM
ok this post is only to this blog. why? because it does not apply to my LJ wakakak so wad this post is about is to faking hell change the skin!! which means i need to get to work... i am lazy... very lazy but if u dun feel like than no point doing rite? anyway i got some ideas on wad to do liao.juz need to shop shop shop as in photoshop shop shop wakakka so stay tune for the new blog skin!!! *i hope*
-9:28 AM
long time never really blog liao... hmm nothing much have change for the last feel days juz that i have got so stress up and so worried bout things that i should not be worrying about.to all that concern thx and sorry for worrying XD
my grandpa juz pass away and it is like the whole morning and stuff is driving me crazy. it is like every now and than someone will break down into tears which is like so... annoying? i dunno i juz find that people are over reacting, or rather i think i don't consider myself in this family...i dun see a point in all this morning or rather i am not sad.. i do say that i am heartless but face it wad are u going to archive by morning? nothing rite?
i start to worry for my cosplay alot... contacts costume and all.. i juz dun wanna be/appear to be a cosfuck. i dunno why is this bothering me but whenever i get some time alone i will start thinking what i have not done and all.. there is not point worrying but i cant stop myself ba.. i mean until now i have not made up my mind on the colours i will be using and this are all unsettle yet
1)boots
2)costume
3)scrolls
4)bingo book + sai's book
5)swords
6)weapon
7)cloth
and the list goes on.....
i should have got all this
1)zen v+
2)contacts
3)tender zen cloths
4)kodona stuff
5)more pants for myself
but do i have enough money? oh ya did i mention i am going to cut my hair? maybe today or wad.. coz i think it is abit too long... but than it link back to the question if the hair will grow back to the lenght which i wan by EOY... this is so vexing...
and of all things i have like start to hate going to school. this is so unlike me you see.. i use to like going to school... maybe is the new class or i have juz too much things on my mind.. going to scool seem so pointless now... not going to scool is not helping me reach my goals but i juz have no mood to study..
well i will juz end this here ba or it will go on and on and on and on....
*i cant wait for my zen!!!*
Saturday, October 07, 2006
-11:11 PM
my grandpa juz die. i dunno how to react XD juz feel ok lor die than die lor.. well maybe i am juz too un concern bout my family XD anyway go slp liao nitez!! ^^
Friday, October 06, 2006
-7:37 AM
stayed up the whole nite... juz to look after my grandpa... btw wad he is currently suffering from would be...
-stroke
-cancer-throath, lungs, intestine
-2 types of gems found in his blood
as show above that is wad he is suffering from... so yes... came d0wn to my aunt to help abit... and yes i stayed up the whole nite... and thx to my trusty lappy which help me with this 8-12 hrs haha and also kagrra songs... their songs are geting more and more addictive... ahhhhh ok juz check their webby and yes they are coming out a new single 22/11/2006 wakakak yes yes i hope i comes out soon and i wish them good sales of their album. alice nine too ya?
i am having dark eye circles. maybe due to me not having enough slp last nite... anyone noe anyway to get it off? this is juz so irriating... i have it when i get dark eye circles... panda leo u see haha later will be going collect my stuff as well as go eat sushi... i think i am spending alot more than i am saving... it is like wtf? my saving plan is like TOAST yes... but i still save abit ba so give me credit for it ok? haha seriously need start saving up liao... alot of things coming in and having no money is not an option. ok i think i am too tire liao... going home at 8 by train haha yes no one in my family is so kind to send me home *poor soul rite?* haha ok ba end this post liao until another time bb!!
Thursday, October 05, 2006
-8:33 AM
life have been stressful for me so far... nothing much to get excited recently.. *unless u are toking bout alice 9 NUMBER SIX which makes me go @.@ *drool* but yes like i was saying nothing much that makes me happi ba... it is like how can u be happi when ur parents are in a cold war with you? and than ur grandpa is hospitalise and his condition is wanna die dun wanna die like that... so yes... nothing much ba...
scool is not doing better to help with wad i am going through... i use to get good grades but now is like B and more B? i really hate geting B... it is like helo i but put in effort ok? do i really deserve a B? and my class is not helping... i think i am one of the more anti social ppl in class... no one to tok to bout anime and all.. and the worst is they seem to know each other...all this boils down to me not wanting to go to scool and all.. zen will not be here at any rate and i dun wanna noe wad my parents will think of a dolfie when my grandpa is like wanna die dun wanna die... i juz wish i had someone who i can really share my problems.. someone to rant and not get sick of me...
anyway thx to pecky ya i have found some entertainment... kagarra alice nine and plastic tree wakakak i have a whole lot of songs but i juz keep skiping them... oh well... i dunno wad is geting to me but yes this driving me crazy..
cosplay is also driving me nuts.. so much politics and also i really hate spams. do u see me going much to the form? * sick of spam* also my costume is killing me... it is like until now i have not decide on a colour for the costume... and the total cost is going to be crazy..
my needs and my wants... i think i got it all mass up... i think i got my life all mass up...
Monday, October 02, 2006
-12:41 AM
jus got this pic from tl. if u are asking wad is this this is ss from ro lor... err from left to right
ddr my gypsy tl lord knight and ivan champ. ya this bring back alot of memories... maybe i willjuz go back play ro. who knows rite? haha
