T e a r s
Friday, December 30, 2005
-9:54 PM
ok ok lets start the ball rolling wahaha 2005 reveiw ^^ dunno wad to reveiw much also i guess alot of things change but than i feel tt hmm i have been a very happy year this yr it was like... so yewsterday when i juz got back my o lvl results and got into rp haha anyway hmm... rp not really a bad scool after all i think it is coz there got great ppl ^^ anyway this yr have been very good coz hmm... noe alot of new ppl tt really painted my life... ppl like:
mao
dap grace ws wu ya jace
mai evan angez chelle
and also alot more...
really have been a great yr wif u guys there have been some unhappiness and some hmm... go times but than let bygone be bygone and look forward to a new begaining wahaha
anyway hmm say a great change in myself ba... use to be those study nerd nerd type but than now really diff haha now really like dance music but than back than was like hmm... dunno also haha now like 24/7 on9 but than back than was like hmmm 24/7 in library? really a very very big change... and i am really happy wif it...
hmm ask for love life... there have been ups and downs this yr... now currently single so anyone wan me let me noe sad lah =x but than really happy to have such good ppl to listen to my problems thx ^^ i also dunno wad to reveiw also now.. but than i think there are more family problems ba this yr.... dunno y also .... hate my family now.. ok not the family it is my parents to be specific.... dunno wth they thinking also... haha anyway hmm wad is someone wifout problems? haha juz being lame.... i think i will end here ba...wait for my next yr wish list which is mainly things tt i wanna buy and things to complete list ^^
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dun wan break my record of my hmm 2 post a day thing haha wad am i toking lol anyway hmm juz wanna add somethings down ba... basically is bout today ba i really hate my parents... ok not my parents my father... hmm... juz find him being unreasonable listen song also cannot? first is was dun buy cd than i go download than is dun listen to music tmd lah which teenager dun listen to music? funny ppl... ok than today was totally spoil coz of him... tmd i look after my bro already very good liao never go out today lor than complain wad i never do house work all this say wad i only noe how to play the com hmm... wad else to do other than playing my com? tok to my bro? watch wif him his fav cartoon? weee back to pokemon lah lah cant they juz let me be me... control this control tt so possives over my life for wad? am i living for myself or for them? i juz dun understand my parents.... dunno why i can tok to my friends better than my family... maybe coz they dun take my crap or maybe i am too crappy for them liao... anyway tml new yr count down liao... hope they dun spoil anything more... I HATE THIS!!!!! wounder if it is only me or issit everyone haveing the same problem... juz think tt it is abit fuck up ba.. dun like go out wif them also scold haiz... wad the point of going out wif them.... dun see the point... see their face i sain liao somemore wanna go in comic shop also cannot wanna stop see my things also cannot coz it is define as "waste time" and buy things is define as "waste money" in my house i mean even if u use it is still define as tt... wanna get harry potter also consider as waste money not like i never read like tt lor... ask me go library borrow... haiz...oh well... parents.... ops i think i better stop complaining liao haha or this post going forever LOL take care guys and peace
-1:04 PM
hm juz thinking bout something wad is fate? haha simple question... issit something tt control us or issit something tt we have control over? often we say it is fate when things dun go in our way but than when things go in our way why not also call it fate? i cant help questioning if we are in contorl of it or if it controls us... i mean hmm... if there is fate than... everything is being "planed" will there be a meaning to live? if u are fated to be a doctor does it mean tt u dun need to work hard u still will become a doctor? or issit better to belive in urself belive tt u are in control.... but than isnt it stupid if there is such things as fate around? haha hmmm i guess i chose to be stupid and go by the fact tt i am in control of my life.... yup... i mean isnt it boring to think tt everything is being plan? i rather do my best give all i got even if i do not get wad i wan i will still be happy coz hmm.... i did all i can and somethings are juz out of ur control... hmm maybe tt is wad we mean by fate ba anyway thx for listening to all my crap haha dunno wad i am i writeing also juz a chain of thoughs ba...
Thursday, December 29, 2005
-9:47 PM
"moi Best fren CPF has finally made up wif me juzz simply love her so much she is so forgiving so nice.... the best in the world"
haha so ya start start this post wif this.. LOL it has been some time after i blog... hmm... ok lah was really lazy to blog... coz was like few days pass and than so many thing happen so many things wanna say BUT yes the big but.... was like i think got so many things i sain already ... ok lah maybe i am lazy pure lazy but after all wad do u get from a slacker? haha anyway xmas over liaos so helo to the old skin wahaha lazy do new yr skin also =x cannot blame lah hor... coz dunno wad and how to make lah lah lah
so ya my cpf dear ask me blog so hmm.. here is the post haha... ok firstly let me say tt like wad it was written up there the whole thing is settle liao ^^ thx to ah nice hehe ok i will start wif err.... sunshine plaza
wad is this place sunshune plaza? it is this shopping center located near the new NAFA not really a big shopping center ba... but than inside is like so many anime shop which sells anime things!!! haiz... really should not go there... anyway a word or warning to all those anime lovers how are broke PLZ DO NOT GO THERE!!!!! coz really u will be like me heart broken!!!! see liao cannot buy the greatest torture lor haha anyway saw alot of nice things and of all CHOBITS figurine!!! omg omg omg was like i wan!!! coz i only need one more which is super hard to find the su mo mo than the whole set complete liao but than the uncle dun wan sell tmd... say wan sell sell the whole set somemore he closeing sales... T.T dunno wad to do lor 60 $$ was like peng lor i dun have the money to i say the next day go buy which i did not go.... sad lah... coz go out wif movie wif my 3 other friends was like super broke.... ok but that is not the point...
i will tok bout the main point haha wad will u chose a limited super rare figurine vs friendship? haha i chose friendship so ya due to tt choice which made me super heart broken for an hour i when to watch narnia wif my good friends.... really nice movie and i am so happy tt hmmm... it was settle? haha yup... figurine can wait for another day but than friendship... hmm... never.. lol
ok so was like friendship settle oh ya have not tell u guys the dates
monday sunshine
tue movie
so now it will be toking bout wed which we went to ah nice house which was super nice!!!! wahaha coz the mother treat us eat seiw mai and was like WTH so nice!!! other than nice i dun really think there is another word to say it liao ba... anyway err.... did not really eat much coz... hmm i already eat liao? haha but really wanna make way for the food which i cannot T.T sad lah
anyway scool wanna reopen liao wahaha miss u guys tt are in poly wor... haha so looking forawrd to seeing our good class haiz.. but than need see burger king again sain lah.... haiz.. think bout bk i sain liao anyway hmmm hope none suffer under his screening LOL looking forward to see u guys coz i totally miss u all!! *muacks* only ah ma dun wan ba... coz see us = open scool which i dunno y she dun think it is fun... anyway as i was saying... scool wanna start liao haha and also tt means tt...... NEW YEAR IS COMING WAHAHA time to make ur new yr resolution wahahaha i also wanna make liao so will let u guys noe asap wahahaha will be fun thinking of wad i wanna do next yr ba... but than think think like half the resolution gonna be saying for fun wor... anyway haha thx for reading my super long post? and happy new yr!!! bb 2005 and helo 2006... will be reveiwing my whole yr in my next post ba...^^
Monday, December 26, 2005
-12:12 AM
hmm boring xmas ba this yr... dunno why.. spend it all alone lah lah lah hmm... call it self isolation ba =x haha dun really noe wad is happening to me.. juz like to be alone... anyway err not really much ba... coz did not get any presents other than tt from last week party... was totally a turn off ba... coz was like hopeing for a ipod nano but than my mum say it is a No NO not a nano... haiz... really sad lah..so to make myself happy i go buy my own present haha 3 bleach books and a maple card... LOL... think i need to save the nano myself...than saw this very nice bag i wan!!! haha got so much to buy so little money haha... hmm let me plan....
bleach 20 books 100--$
nano--350$
nice bag--100$
my own new yr cloths... --$200
so was like really got alot to spend lor.. some things can wait but than hmm.. dunno ba... haha now really so sain... lonely xmas this yr... scool wanna reopen liao weeeee so happy haha today was like heard something from someone... and it goes like this.. "if there is an earthquake who is the 1st person tt come to ur mind?tt person will be the wan u really like" hmm i already got the answer but not really going to disclose it ba...disclose liao sure errmm choas de haha anyway sometimes it is good to lose things ba.. coz... when u lose something that u found the really value of it... and it goes the same wif friendship... dun wan to lose anyone anymore.. haha i think i type this alot of ppl bf will kill me but than... hmm... really ba... better to have a friend than an enemy ba... was like after wad happen i treasure my friends more and more..hmmm xmas wanna end liao so manybe changing the skin ba... haha so good bye to this skin? LOL maybe a few more days ba... haha i go slp liao so cya
Saturday, December 24, 2005
-9:57 PM
lah lah before xmas and was like err... dunno wad to blog haiz... my wishlist? wad i wish for is too expensive liao so errr... maybe share wif u all somethings ya... all bout friendship again =x no lah i think mainly my errr xmas present for u guys coz some dun meet so err... haha really thx all all for being there.... this few quotes will be going out to all my frineds especially 5 of my best friends.... eunice cpf ah ter shang and mao.... hehe hope u all like it and err.... peace!!!! love u all
to eunice and cpf as well as mao - "If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day, so I never have to live without you." Winnie the Pooh
to mao shocky mun and lei- Best friends are the siblings God chose not to give us
to shang shocky and lei- Good friends are like stars—you don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
to ah ter and all my poly friends - Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.
to all - "When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there"
to cpf - "A friend is the person who knows all about you and still loves you." Elbert Hubbert
to eunice p.s thx - "In giving advice seek to help, not to please, your friend." Solon
to mao shang eunice ter cpf and lei - "My friend, if I could give you one thing, I would wish for you the ability to see yourself as others see you. Then you would realize what a truly special person you are."
to all especially mao ws grace and dap - "True wealth can not be found in your bank account. It can only be found in those you call friend. Those with whom you share your deepest feelings. And those who accept you for who you really are." --Mary Vandergrift
my previous class"True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it be lost." -- Charles Caleb Cotton
to angez - "Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labour. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow: but woe to him that is alone when he falleth; for he hath not another to help him up." --The Bible, Ecclesiastes
to ws and mai -"Friendship isn't a big thing; It is a million little things."
to dap thx to much-"Friends are these people who ask you how you are and wait for an answer."
my now the class-"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born." --Anaïs Nin
hope u all like it ^^
Thursday, December 22, 2005
-9:08 PM
suddenly feel like cycleing and was like HELLO now is 9 at nite!! and it have juz rain but than really feel like cycling... plan was like called of cause there is no one going wif me... tt is so god damn bloody sad lor... ah nice need work and cpf my other good friend was like... hmm.. dunno if she is still piss wif me.. dun wan later cycle cycle than suddenly say something wrong again.... was like now i feel so guilty... dunno issit becasue i noe i am wrong... hmm ya i noe i am wrong but than i dunno wad to do... sad to say i abit sot liao ba.... going crazy fix puzzle today 1000 pices and than was like wah so fast complete... than nothing to do lor... for some reason... i use to like puzzle... but now... i guess i grew out of it liao ba... sad lah...... haha on a happier note... hmm....i also dunno wad to be happy bout wor... watching burst angel now... nice anime bout 4 very very cute and pretty gals crime fighting something like tt ba... haha anyway err.... ya mao sux shang also sux and tl sux most.... lah lah i also dunno wad i am writing... i think i better end here or it will be more and more crap!!!!!! lah lah lah lah lah
-12:13 AM
hmm ya i think i noe wad is wrong liao... all thx to eunice... really helps alot help me see it from her point of veiw but than i am now totally lost ba.... it is like the more i say sry the more piss cpf gets.... or maybe i am not saying sry in a proper manner... juz have too much things unsaid between us ba... i regret my other post... hmm... why... coz she really is my best friend... losing her is really i dunno... like the world is collapsing on me like tt... i dunno how to really express myself... never good wif my emotions and words i guess... really hate myself for not seting things rite... looking from her point of veiw i really think she have all the rights to be piss wif me ba... really really am sry but i dunno how to say it.... totally lost... i dun wanna lose a good friend... i hope...... anyway ya hope is for the hopeless.. lah lah lah go slp liao cya... better tml ba...
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
-8:46 PM
hmm today wad am i going to say... let me think.... ya i think i am going to say is... wad to worry about? i have done my best and do all i can ba... dun like it than nvm ba... dun make everyone piss haha hmm guess i have not been myself lately ba.... lah lah lah really need get back to the crappish cheerful happy go lucky soo han lah lah wahahaha wanna go out so anyone wanna go out plz call me thx wahaha like so despo like tt... ok lah maybe... think bout unhappy things for wad? lol ask myself tt and like suddenly got the answer.... ya.. maybe i am juz stupid but than... i really have good friends around me ^^ love u guys!!!
Monday, December 19, 2005
-11:12 PM
lah lah 2rd post for today wahaha hmm in this post wanna say 2 things hehe juz 2 simple things... first is i have make amaple blog
http://-cc-plz.blogspot.com/ so u all wanna go can go ^^ will update it maple like every week once? or maple lesser than tt ba.... not really up yet the blog as in the lay out but than will change the skin and everyhitng but than for now bare wif it... hmmm ok 2nd thing haha i think i found a new way to let myself out liao wahaha listen to dance song lor chong dance song dunno how like it is going to last me but than i hope it really last me so tt means no more cuting until then ba... haha thx for all of u ba... i try settle my stuff asap and i promise u guys tt i will not cut anymore ok? BUT will not comfirm if i am really really very depress hor....haha cya ba wanna slp liao
-6:54 PM
arghz another stupid problem today... tmd my best friend tot i like her which is super not true juz becuase i send her one present which have "boy friend wanted" printed up there does not mean i like her tmd wad is she thing now i think i am geting more and more anti social... dun really wanna chat wif mao ba... geting colder and colder to everyone.... dunno wad is wrong wif me... hmm i really dunno wad to feel now i guess it is confuse ba... asking myself if i like her or not which to me the answer is NO a very big fat no because she is my best friend and err... ya i dun like her!! rather she is being too over sensertive ... how to make myself clear? i really dunno ...i am juz geting angey wif every small thing tt happens to me wad happen to wad is use to say? smile has it been forgotten? i guess ya.... every part of me in the past is forgotten i cant get myself clear now... geting piss more and more often... i juz wanna die..... everything fault is wif me when this go wrong the first thing is me... i guess i am being too nice... and i should not have been so nice.... someone save me ba
Friday, December 16, 2005
-8:51 PM
i hate them i hate them!!!! arghz cut myself today and than suddenly juz broke down i am not going to spare any details here coz i am too angry to recall if u ask me to recall back the detials juz so angry today and maybe say ba so wad to do? cut myself and broke down lor... hmm the most worst one ba i guess cut until really whole hand also can see... hard to imagine rite? haha dun think too much hor u guys... juz some stupid family problms... y issit so hard to communiate wif them =( will them ever listen? no!! nvm ba... ju need contiune to cut myself if this goes no ba... and if i do not blog and the worst is dun on9 maybe i am already dead who knows? haha
p.s not tt i wanna be an attention seeking fucker but than sooner ur later u all will know this so err... ya hope i dun die so soon ba
Thursday, December 15, 2005
-10:23 PM
lah lah it has really been awhile since my last post... hmm where should i start? ok i think i start by saying err... WAH SL U GOT INTO MY BLOG AR??? weeee power pack haha SL = super large = SHANG Lin = GAY ASS = MY GOOD FRIEND haha he gone oversea i think he miss me tt y overcome all odds to come to my block omg so touch wanan cry liao hahaa *lame* haha so wanna tok about u wahahaa hmm shang is err.... wait!!! i dun wan dirty my blog wif u as my post so err wanan change the subject ba =p lah lah lah
anyway err jzu update a few things ba.. firstly err.... xmas party in 2 more days ^^ yup this sat going stay over nite at the party wahahaha ok lah the party at eunice house so err... dun think too much hor haha to date i have spend over 120 $$ on the presents!!! was like boom!! and it is to date coz err some presents i have not buy yet... going poorer and poorer day by day.. sob but than i hope to really get something nice for my xmas present whahahaha which i hinted to them ( a life size chobits figurine which can move =x) the following is wad i did
today slack at home
wed go out wif eunice and janice(shannoon gf) to sunplaza than sunshine plaza than to shan house
tue go to j8
mon wif cpf
sun out wif cf again
sat was eating steamboat wif cpf soon tian and eunice
hmmm ok will tok bout wed haha hmm... was like ok go out wif shan gf haha janice someone shorter than shannon wahaha he finally found someone shorter lol anyway we went to sun plaza first where i dance my para para wahaha so happy lor but than err.... standard not there liao sad lah haha but we had alot of fun wahaha after ttwe went to sunshine plaza there was like FUCK so many nice stuffs!!! u muz be a comic lover to like tt place coz it was like over flow wif all types of comic figurine!!! tmd and to noe i was broke arghz should not have gone in saw soo many things lor haha hmm anyone wanna get me xmas present can go there buy for me hor wahaha hmm gtg soon ba go msn chat liao so err cya ba ^^ and shang u sux =x
Friday, December 09, 2005
-9:21 PM
juz to share somethings today... coz was looking though the internet and saw some rather nice quotes... hehe
"A friend is a gift you give yourself."-Robert Louis Stevenson
"The most I can do for my friend is simply to be his friend." -- Henry David Thoreau
"A friend can tell you things you don't want to tell yourself." -- Frances Ward Weller
"Forsake not an old friend, for a new one does not compare with him." Apocrypha -- Ecclesiasticus 9:10
"The only way to have a friend is to be one." * Ralph Waldo Emerson
"We know our friends by their defects rather than by their merits." * W. Somerset Maugham
Thursday, December 08, 2005
-8:17 PM
yo yo back liao haha firstly err.... wanna say thx to all my friends wor... all that are there this awhile supporting me haha really thx alot!!! love u all!!! haha u noe wad i mean... LOL anyway err here to update a 2 things... 1st is my err friend 2rd is my cycling today!!1 wahahah so err...lets get down to business? haha
ok so hmm need thx all of u... anyway err the problem settle liao... was like so being childish... haha dunno how it really feel being blast at until he blast back at me... hmm.... anyway err juz take it that i am sometimes stupid ba... i dun really care how ppl feel do i? so err ya i am really sry ba... haha on a brighter note... err today went out cycling wif my 2 other good friends haha both gal de... cycle all the way from bishan to upper peirce... hmm here is the road we took
bishan-> bishan park 1 -> park2 ->lower peirce->casurina->upper peirce and back all the way
haha was like err go there 2 hrs than come back 2 hrs but than it was all worth it!!! really fun wor... haha cycle cycle cycle than almost got bang down by car... i think most of u now think "haiz y never get bang down sad lah!!!" LOL but than too bad lah lah haha i am still here wahahaha ok back to topic than there are also stupid monkey on the way which almost attack us... hmm dunno y some ppl dunno how to read signs... "DO NOT FEED THE MONKEY" cant they juz read? haha this stupid car infront of our bike stop and feed the monkey and make it almost atk us.... hmmm really stupid lor... haha but upper perice really nice wor... was like although need 2hrs there almost get back down by car and attack by monkey but it was all worth it!!! wahahaha the veiw there really is very nice... hmm post some pic leh u all see ba haha oh ya... i got sun burn!!! and it was like err... pain!!! there is no other word than pain to say lor haha anyway gtg liao so err cya soon?
Monday, December 05, 2005
-4:08 PM
lah lah back for my daily post? LOL haha i today go judo was like so tire lor put push up sit up psuh up sit up so many times.... haiz... i think tml hand pain leg pain liao haha so later wanna go slp liao haha it is 4 by the way... dunno will i slp until wad time haha anyway saw wendy today was like so long never see her liao haha now she have gold straighten hair and was like WAH so cool lor hahah hmm.... ya dun wan stay at home too long ba later see stupid ppl somemore go on9 also see stupid ppl juz dun like get stab ba so this few days abit errr down? maybe back to cuting myself? hahaha not really sure bout myself also wor it is really like hmm so hard to comfort yourself... i dun really wanna share this problem ba... so will not be seeing me on9 so offen ba... haha anyway CYA!!!
Sunday, December 04, 2005
-11:42 PM
feel so sad now ba.... dun ask me why... juz feel so sad ba.... why issit always someone who will tok at ur back and than try to do some nasty things to u? juz have to pretend to be tire and go to slp ba.... feel so sad now... dunno ba... juz feel abit sad of coming on9 liao.... contridict my previous post rite? haha sometimes i wounder y issit so ahrd to comfort others but so hard to comfort urself.....
-10:32 AM
yo yo everyone i am back!!! haha ok tt was abit lame coz err.... like long time never really blog liao ^^ hmm life have been so good so far haha into the 2nd day of my holiday enjoy slping until 10 in the morning LOL anyway err....wad was i going to say.... let me think.... ok never mind tt oh ya today having family gather.... so sain wor this time at my house ok not that i dun like family gathering but than i dun like it at MY HOUSE the reason being the lazy me if it is at my house i need to clear my room clean my room make it mess free and help my mum cook so do u guys see the picture?
now i looking for job need the extra income ba... really abit sad lor cannot buy comic cannot eat good food and the most stupid part is cannot buy xmas present.... haiz... and i think i going to miss today outing wif my friends lor eunice and florence wan to go ichibandoshi today but than err.... partly due to my family gathering ba the other reason is the shortage of cash haiz....
i think i will be updateing more this holiday ba... coz like so slack like tt haha tml going judo liao need chong judo!!! coz i think grading coming soon so i will be geting my brown this year? and than black next year? haha now currently having my blue belt than think of black belt is like so near but yet so far de.... LOL i think i need end this here ba mum nagging liao still need clear my room make it "dust free" lol cya and take care wor u guys and gals!!
Thursday, December 01, 2005
-2:38 PM
lah lah here to blog again... hmm anyway err make this skin today wahahhaa not bad ba LOL hmm my new skin think up for one month ba haha hope i dun get this temptation to chnage it back ba LOL anyway err like this skin.... haha brb later to blog ba *yawn*
