T e a r s
Friday, September 30, 2005
-9:05 PM
28/9
when to east coast today!!!! haha before tt we go park way buy the food for the bbq wor hmm i think we cut the cost alot coz we did not buy alot of things wor!!!!! than go to east coast hmm if u ask me i dun really noe wad i did wor haha go there err ride bicycle? haha really forget liao but than really had a nice time...
at nite bbq lor still got wad ar? haha after tt err play truth or dare than some ppl sot de go drink until dunno where
when out wif dap and jac for late nite stroll than eat than walk ba hahahaha
hahaha
29/9
when home wif jac early in the moring got my 3 hrs slp at home stupid bro come home so early or i can slp more anyway.... went back at about 3 than go beach hmm go back walk beach than at nite bbq again... sain wor eat bbq until sain haha so went to mac lor haha really never eat a meal tt happy wor hmm....
i love the sea wor.... love listening to the waves!!!!
at nite slp outside wor really abit shity lah slp outside.... did not really get any slp haha hmm when back dunno wad time thna play uno wif dap and her friend haha play until sot all so high haha no beer / wine but still high >.< than play until 6 ba than go watch sun rise so nice!!!!! haha
really had a nice time wor.... if u take out some parts of it haha will miss u ppl de .... take care.....
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
-10:57 PM
sometimes i dunno why i come on9 wor or should i say go msn ba ........ wanna find somemore tok also so hard de.... haiz.... not off line than is busy de haha so sain wor.... really need some one share problem also hard... haha really life sux....
Monday, September 26, 2005
-6:38 PM
update my mtv haha
this is the Music Video for Final Fantasy X-2 performed by Koda Kumi song name is call real emotion really nice song wor
err i have it on my friendster also haha
hope u all like it wor next week than change again haha
anyway i dunno if that is how they make the ff 10-2 the starting u noe the part where yuna dance? haha if it is wah!!! technology is really geting up and up haha anyway juz sit back and enjoy ba
p.s: xingling so sry next week than put ur rain haha
-6:23 PM
today clear ah fat cage.... for all those tt dunno who af fat is.... it is my hamster haha anyway when i was cleaning ah fat cage today juz suddenly feel tt i have not been really looking after them.... really feel sry for them wor..... last time use to let them run all over my room de... but now.... haha i think i have really got to look after them !!! when they fater than post their cute pic ^^v
oh ya by the way i change my msn liao haha all those tt dunno ask from err anyone tt have my new msn? haha renai de go forum i got post there rp de go ask dap haha too much rubbish contact liao and i dun wan go arround asking ppl to add me sick lor haha i wanna go eat liao so err eat well everyone? haha and nitez~~~!!!
Sunday, September 25, 2005
-10:47 PM
helo!!!!!!!!! ok no point saying helo think i toking to myself only haha
anyway yesterday outing was really fun hahah saw all the renai members all so crap de go lan liao than go tian tian lol finally meet all of them really good to noe them ^^v
hmm but yesterday really make me feel that i have done a bad job organizing the outing wor.... haha really at some point duno wad to do ...... i guess there is always a first for everything ba haha
today got this jet lag feeling hate tt feeling keep wanna slp de stupid slp until dunno where haha anyway went to watch rp band juz now really was good!!!!! good job to dap ter and ws haha ^^v
p.s to mao u really not as fat was wad u told me lah.... haiz gals.... lol
Saturday, September 24, 2005
-12:46 PM
later going renai outing haha
4.30 meet
6 go lan
10 go tian tian tt all ba haha
haha hope will have good time ^^v cya
Friday, September 23, 2005
-8:21 PM
to keron and his sis with greatest regard for this late grandmother....
"To die proudly when it is no longer possible to live proudly. Death of one's own free choice, death at the proper time, with a clear head and with joyfulness, consummated in the midst of children and witnesses: so that an actual leave-taking is possible while he who is leaving is still there."- Friedrich Nietzsche
-12:47 PM
wahhh juz now surf net tt time saw this >>>>> play it haha abit gay but got to say he really have some nice dance moves!!!! so added this to my blog lor will update wif more mtv ba today also saw rain the song call it is raining haha think next week than update ba.... lol still got alot song i wan update de but.... haha
^^v enjoy this song by Se7en call hikari and watch this cool dance moves!!!!
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
-10:13 PM
things have been improving for me.....
i am really happy this few days
not that i dun miss my friends but i feel more relax.... more.... errr not so depress? haha
ya i think things have change for the better
Monday, September 19, 2005
-9:00 PM
juz have something to say today haha
ppl are hypocrite at times but try not to over do it
Sunday, September 18, 2005
-9:48 AM
happy mooncake festivial to everyone? haha or should i say happy burn lantern day? haha
anyway later i going out whole day wif my friends wor... dunno go where also haha i think i later wait them call me than go out dunno wad time also .... gals haha meet dress up and blah blah blah but than will have fun haha hope u guys also have fun!!!!
happy burn lantern day!!!!! happy eating ur mooncake also!!!!!
Saturday, September 17, 2005
-4:28 PM
she called me yesterday..... haha dunno y suddenly she call wor..... but than haha yesterday tok to her so long lol i dunno y i also care to tok to her.... than i juz realize i am not as angry wif her as before.... i think for now we are juz frineds? haha ya i think i better keep this simple ba no point going on.... haha ya so today go out wif her haha really dunno wad happen to me wor but than we are juz friends i guess haha.......
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
-10:01 PM
juz wanna share abit of a something today....
"the strongest weapon in the world is not any weapon that kill but the weapon of words"
that is statment i came up wif....
to think about it the power words is really very strong..... weapon can hurt u but than words can torment u.... get wad i mean? the words u say when u wanna have a break in a relationship.... well..... it is juz to hurting.... and when after u break the worst thing to do is.... go back and say sry..... the pain that torment someone is juz too great even weapons cannot have sure pain.....
juz came to me that my "kor" and his gf broke up than when he is trying to forget her that time she juz came back to say "sry" is it confuseing? is it really painful? yes words that we give ppl really hurts..... there will never be a stronger weapon than the feeling of pain that ur love ones give u..... juz when ppl start to stand up again u juz push him back down.....
dun tok about love lets tok about something more everyday wad i call the "name calling"
yes it is one of the things that hurts so much for some..... not everyone like to be label as a "gay" a "fat ass" a "nerd" and when this message sinks into the person brain will he/she think tt he/she is one? will it lead to depression? yes..... words really do hurt....
however words are really good things wor.... wifout words.... how are we to tell others that we care and feel for them? wad is the feeling when ur teacher or someone say u have done a good job? yes althougt this things are not physically rewarding but it is mentally.....
so plz dun anyhow use words...... on others on urself on anyone...... dun make anyone in despair wif ur words brighten up someone day wif it.... hope u all get the message say "Leo/soohan rox when u see me" hahah that will sure brighten up my day ^^v
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
-7:59 PM
really nothing to do lately haha ok ba today went out to watch a movie wif dap clb and monkey okok is grace and wee xiong the last two ok? hahaha anyway i went there not really watch wor i was like go there pay $7 slp wor... really dun really noe wad the movie toking about or should i say i dun understand the language hahaha
i start missing someone lately.... dunno wad got into me wor..... juz start missing her.... dunno if i really did it right tt time but now... i dun think i will start wif anyone ba.... it is really juz i dunno how to explain after so long already suddenly miss her.... something tt i feel stupid for....
ya some ppl have told me tt i recently abit sot..... ok maybe not some ppl but i have realise it also.... haha juz dun wan to be sad ba juz dun wan to think things that are depressing or should i say... i juz dun wan let ppl see me depress.... got scolded last sat by someone and i guess he is rite ba.... we each have our own problem so wad for being depress? to show other that u have problems ? no point ba..... haha dun wan give ppl extra load liao haha anyway.... really need thx all of u wor.... haha dunno wanna thx u all for wad but than ya i sot liao hahaha ren si fan jian de as wad grace always say haha
Monday, September 12, 2005
-8:01 PM
this few days really rotting at home haha really nothing to do... read book also lazy read.... dunno really wad i wan in life already..... i feel so hopeless now.... maybe juz have to go get a job ba.... tml going out again really broke liao.... T.T
Sunday, September 11, 2005
-4:31 PM
this is something i like to share wif u all!!!!! coz i find it really nice.
"happy are those who are sad for they will be comforted"
dun always confine ur feelings to urself share it wif others
when u are sad when u are happy when u are angry.
u never noe how sad it is to juz keep things to urself
when there are people out there who like to share the load.....
oh ya got somemore thing to add haha i think i am suffering from depression or am i not ar? today saw this report on the news paper " ppl who slp alot in the day are those who tend to suffer from depression" i am suffering from depression ? i hope i am not ba haha this few days keep slping in day really dunno what is happening to me..... maybe it is juz sain ba haha hmm.... will have a late friday post coz i now waiting for some pictures haha cya later ba hahaha
Saturday, September 10, 2005
-11:20 PM
if u see a good friend of urs drifting away from u part by part... what will u do?
juz abit disapoointed wif myself lately i juz see my friends drifting away from me and yet i cannot do anything and when i try to do something about it i did something much worst... dunno if i have done the right thing or not but i am a total dissapointment to myself to my friends and "god bro"
Friday, September 09, 2005
-2:43 PM
i think now than i realise that i have made such good friends in class......
really need to treausre them....
ya although sometimes they do get on u (i think u all noe who i toking lah hor)
and i get on to u all
but than they are still ur friend rite?
never try to change someone espically ur friend
because......
are we not speacial for being who we are?
by changeing someone are we not removing the very speacial part of them away from us?
Thursday, September 08, 2005
-9:51 PM
today err.... so fun? haha ok it was fun haha went out wif wu ya ws grace and van to a "farm" ok maybe not really a farm ba haha but it was.... errr.... nice ok skip the nice part lol coz we go there than the rest tot tt is is very nice but than i noe it is not nice lol..... errr really nothing to walk de but than the only thing we did there was takeing photo really was fun!!!! we take take take take until 2 bus go ba.... dunno lah hahhaa after the farm we gone to orchard eat haha van went home we eat liao go home look dull rite? but than today really fun dunno ba.... wad ever haha i abit sot now so ....... bb
i noe this is not really a good post but than really dunno wad to write err... not to say nothing ba but now really sot so ya...
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
-9:53 PM
slping is addictive..... maybe juz like lah lah land ba haha the only thing i noe now is it is really addictive....... slp already still wan slp somemore *yawnz* i go slp liao nite nite and sweet dreams everyone..... Zzzzzzz
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
-12:02 PM
septenber 06 an old animal have gone forever in his dreams
to ah fat who was once so dear to me rest in peace in the hamster heaven and may he be bless in heaven....
it is juz part of life that something die the only thing that can remain is the memories of him.....
alothough ah fat is my hamster he have shown me alot......
the cycle of life contiunes as he part from this world
i cannot say i have given everything good to him but i guess i have give everything i can for him
the only thing that will remain is the sweet memories of him the very sweet memories that once tourch my heart wif every of his cute actions......
he die so peacefully in his slp.....
juz have to accept that he is gone..... part of the cycle of life......
may he be bless and may memories of him never leave me.... T.T
Saturday, September 03, 2005
-12:34 PM
u have come juz like this and go juz like this
u have left so much pain so much suffering in my life
what can i want more than to see u go!!!!
however this emptiness inside me....
what is wrong with me?
without the pain u have gave me i still feel the pain....
are we made to be alone?
have i forget the happiness that we once share?
yes humans are not made to be alone
a part of me juz disapear
without you where is the pain the suffering?
and of all the happiness and friendship we had once forge?
if we can control fate will we chose to meet again someday?
my friend although u are not beside me.....
u will still be my friend till the very end....
yes we are not made to be lonely.....
juz my thoughs haha
Friday, September 02, 2005
-11:21 PM
really dunno wad to feel today sad or happy haha.....
why is it always when u are geting well in ur enviroment and it will suddenly change? i still dont know the reason maybe it is for the better but than what if it is the fact that most of ur good friends are going? what will the road ahead be without them? i will really miss those ppl that come into my life.... the only regret at this part is not knowing u all sooner.....
anyway i will miss my class !!!!!! wish u all the best everyone in my class speacially
ws aka monkey
siew huey aka wu ya
grace aka CLB
daph aka (still thinking)
jace
thx for painting this part of my life wif all those wounderful colours ^^v thx!!!!!!
